Friday, April 26, 2013


I am addicted to making lists. I don't know how it started but I just love having a list for absolutely everything in my life. The issue with loving lists is that I have them everywhere. I download so many different listing apps, and I also have tons of notebooks that I use to write down lists. But this is a terrible idea because I end up with lists all over the place rather than having one nice little listing resource. I try to keep all of my lists in evernote, but sometimes I just want to use a goog ole pen and paper to write everything down. This usually leads to me starting a notebook with a few lists and then abandoning the notebook. Then I never want to use the notebook for anything else because it has lists in it and it isn't fresh anymore. It's very silly.

My favorite kinds of lists are goals lists. I split these up into categories like a crazy person. I have lists for long term goals that I want to accomplish, and I have lists of shorter term goals. I have lists of career goals and general personal goals for myself. Sometimes when I am feeling extra crazy and productive I will break down my goals into monthly goals and even weekly goals. I get too overwhelmed when I try to give myself daily goals, so I have given up on that.

I also have lists that I use to keep track of things I have watched on television. I keep track of all the books I read. And sometimes I keep lists of big events that have happened in my life so that I can look back at the end of the year and realize that it wasn't all just a waste of time.

I also keep a list of thoughts which is the weirdest thing. Sometimes my mind gets cluttered with misc thoughts from anything like "huh, I should try that recipe" to "hmm that show looks interesting" I take all of these thoughts and I write them down so that I can never forget anything. I wonder if this makes me some kind of psycho.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Science Fiction

As I mentioned in another post I am a huge science fiction and fantasy geek. I'm geeky about it enough about it that I thought I should give it it's own post.

Ever since I was a kid I have always liked things that were unrealistic. At the time, I didn't know that this was generally referred to as fantasy. If the movie or show had a monster in it, or if any of the characters has some kind of extraordinary super power then I automatically loved it.

This love of all things fantastical carries on to this day. I still love a lot of the things I liked as a kid. I still love Harry Potter. And my favorite show will always be Buffy the Vampire Slayer no matter what. The problem with loving fantasy and science fiction is that it's really hard to find good stuff. I just recently completed the show Battlestar Galactica and it quickly became one of my favorite television shows. The problem with this is that now after watching BSG, I'm finding it increasingly more complicated to like anything as much. All the shows seem to pale in comparison.

When it comes to more light harded science fiction, I always find myself comparing the shows to Buffy. I've never found a show that can so seemlessly combine genres the way Buffy did. There are no shows that Have a perfect blending of brilliant comedy and amazing epicness. Doctor Who is the closest show I've seen that does this. Although my issue with Doctor Who is that, while I love it, there are a ton of really awful episodes that are so difficult to get through. I almost gave up on the show all together because I couldn't get through season 1 since the plots were so terrible and the humor seemed really juvenile. Now I love the show, but it has not reached Buffy levels of love.

I've heard supernatural as one of the shows recommened for Buffy lovers, so I am going to give tha show a shot sometime soon. We'll see if it'll even come close to touching my love of the best show ever.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Getting gel manicures

I have recently become hooked to gel nail manicures. They're the best invention I have ever seen. I have stopped giving myself manicures because I was becoming tired of it coming off minutes after I applied the nail polish. It started to feel like I was wasting time putting effort in to something that would be gone so quickly.

I went to the salon with my sister to have my nails done a month ago. I really didn't want to go at first since its expensive to spend money on something like a manicure, but if I had stayed behind I would never have heard about gel nail polish. It is so fabulous. My nails stayed dark red for 2 weeks after I had them painted at the salon.

I started doing a bit of research to see if I could paint my nails with gel polish at home and found that you can, but you have to buy a lamp to cure the polish. I'm thinking about buying one, and I think that it could be worth the investment because it's really expensive to go to the salon all of the time. I love having my nails painted too, so I know that I would get a lot of use out of it. I got a couple of ideas about what to purchase from a site called Nails and Polish which has nail lamp reviews.

Whether or not I should get an LED lamp or a UV lamp is the next decision that I have to make. The first investment into this is going to be expensive since I will need to buy nail polishes in addition to the lamp. I don't even know which gel polish is the best yet!

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Me and my sister

I never understood sibling rivalrys. I have always been really close to my little sister. We have so much in common and we have so much fun when we spend time together. We would always see portrayals of siblings on television and laugh at how the characters would always be at each others throats. We thought it was funny because we have never been like that in our entire lives.

I wonder if it has to do with our age difference. I am significantly older than she is, so perhaps the fact that we are so far apart in age means that there is really not much that we can bicker about. We just get along perfectly. If anything, she is probably the person that I spend the bulk of my time with, and she's probably the only good thing about living at home. It means I always have a friend, or there is always someone there that I can talk to.

Sometimes I feel bad for only children. I know that they don't know what it is like to have a brother or a sister so it doesn't feel like they are missing something, but I can't imagine having someone who is permanently my friend no matter what.. I also feel bad for siblings who just don't get along with each other. I can't even imagine what that is like. It must suck.

Me and my sister have recently been obsessed with trying to watch as much science fiction television as possible. We have been working our way through a lot of tv shows that most people have already watched and we haven't yet. We are currently working our way through the x-files. I know it's such a disaster that two scifi geeks have not completely finished this show. But we're trying!

Monday, April 15, 2013

Living at home

I have been living in the same place since I was 12 years old. I am now in my mid 20s and I still reside in the same place bedroom that I grew up in. After I graduated college I had to move back in with my parents. Even though I had a job straight out of school, I still couldn't afford to live on my own. That's the problem with living in a major city, the rent is ridiculous and I'll be lucky if I get out of my childhood home before I am 30.

I want to move out more than anything in the world. Lots of young women dream about success in their careers, or getting married and having children. But the only thing I want more than anything else in the world is a place to call my own. I want a place where I can pick out all the furniture and decorate it however I want. I want to have a kitchen that is only stocked with the food that I like. I want a place that I can go to to escape all of the people in my life and be alone. The problem with living in the house that you grew up in is that there is never a moment alone. There is always at least one other family member in this house at any given time. I love my family but as an introvert, I really feel like I need solitude at times and I never have it. This is one of the reasons I feel like I could never have children because I know that I would go crazy having people who depend on me surrounding me all of the time.

I've been trying to save enough money to move, but it really does feel like it's never going to happen because I am in so much debt from college. My student loan payments take up a huge chunk of any of the money that I make in a month. It's really sad because I feel like my education hasn't helped me to make more money at all. If I hadn't gone to college I'd be in the same situation I am now, except that I might be able to pay rent since I wouldn't be spending all of my money on loan payments. I guess there is always a catch of some sort.

Friday, April 12, 2013

Writing therapy

I wonder if I am the only one who finds writing really therepeutic. I started this blog not as a way to speak to the world, and I don't even ever expect anyone to read it. I just wanted a place where I could dump out all of the thoughts in my head. It didn't matter to me whether or not anything I write makes sense, or if my grammar is any good. I just like to put everything down on paper, so to speak.

Sometimes when my brain feels really congested all that I need to do is write. I'll write about whatever I'm worried about, or whatever happened to me that day. I'll write about something that happened to me years ago. It doesn't matter. Just the feeling of my fingers against the keyboard is enough to make me start feeling better instantly.

I like writing so much that I start collecting any sort of writing apps available. Everything from stuff in the windows 8 app store to all the things from the apple app store. My favorite so far is evernote. It is probably my most used app on all of my devices. I use it to store lists of anything from things that I need to get done, to things that I want to achieve. I even use it to keep track of movies, shows, and books I've watched because I found that keeping lists of things I have consumed helps to trigger memories. I love being able to look at a book I have read and remember the time I read it, and what was going on in my life at that time.

When I was younger I wanted to be a writer, and then I realized that I wasn't very good at it and I didn't really like writing stories or anything. So I guess this is my way of still enjoying the feeling that writing gibes to me without actually needing to be any good at it, or all the boring stuff like editing and proof reading. Just write, and press enter.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Techie addict

Sometimes I feel like I am addicted to buying technology. I look around my room and I see that I have so many different screens to look at. I have a large tv. I have a desktop computer and a laptop. I have an iphone. I have an ereader. I gave away my ipad after realizing just how many unnecessary gadgets I had. I mean, who really needs all of this stuff anyway?

I just can't seem to help myself. Whenever I see something new get released I feel like I need to have it. I also get tired of the things that I own really quickly. So I'll be excited about my new phone for about a week before I feel like I don't like it anymore and I want something new. I wish that I had an obsession that was less expensive than this. I don't exactly have the money to throw around on any piece of new technology that gets released. Can't I just be addicted to something free like meditating?

In addition to many screens I also have an xbox, a wii, a dvd player and a bluray player. The bluray player may be the most useless thing that I own because I don't even use it for anything besides streaming netflix. I used to have a netflix bluray account but I cancelled it when they stopped offering streaming for free to their subscribers.

Let's not forget that I also have a dslr camera and I just purchased a nice little external harddrive despite the fact that I already had one. I felt like I needed something a bit smaller. I think that someone needs to take all of my money and lock it away for me because this is beginning to become ridiculous.

I could spend hours in best buy just staring at everything and wanting all of it.

Friday, April 5, 2013

The Kindle paperwhite

I just recently purchased a kindle paperwhite and it is the most amazing thing I have ever owned. I love everything about it. I spent a lot of time wondering whether or not I should buy one since I already have one of the original nook ereaders. But I found myself being annoyed that I couldn't read in my room at night because it was too dim even with the light on. So I went ahead and made the purchase for the paperwhite and I have no regrets about it.

The lighting is really good. I've been reading at night in the middle settings and it' perfectly fine. I think my favorite feature of it is the option to see how much time you have remaining in a chapter or in the book. At first I thought it seemed like a useless feature, but I love being able to know whether or not I have enough time to finish a chapter before I go to bed. I just hate stopping in the middle of a chapter.

Unfortunately I do seem to be having the discoloration on the screen that a lot of people have complained about. It's not completely obvious at first, and I see it more in low lighting than I do in the middle of the day. But it's not bad enough that I feel like I need to return it. It looks like this is a problem that a lot of kindle users are having. I was hoping that since I waiting so long before purchasing it after the release that the problem would have been solved, but alas. I do still like it though.

Overall I'm incredibly happy with my purchase and I think it's a lot better than my nook. I've only had it for about a week and I have already read three books on it. That's amazing!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Disney Movies

Anyone who knows me knows that I have a great passion in life: Disney films. Much to the chagrin of many people, I not only own tons of VHS disney movies, but tons of cassettes with songs on them.It doesn't matter that I am 25, I love popping these movies into my old school vcr before I go to bed.

Last night I was spending a bit of time on facebook when I dsocvered Paper Man. I know that many have already seen this amazing gem, but it was the first time for me. After watching it I was in such a good mood.

I loved the girls outfit in it. If I were a cartoon character I would have clothes like her.

My favorite disney princess is belle because she is a bit geeky and she likes to read just like I do. I always dreamed that I could have a library like the one that is in Beauty and the Beast. Okay, so maybe I would also like the prince, but the library really is the most important thing. Now I think I will have to go watch a few disney movies!

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Playing the guitar

There has been a lot of action in my life in recent weeks. Graduation, a new job and a new life! With all these changes, it is difficult to find time for myself. Yesterday evening, I got my first guitar lessons of 2013, and I realized how much music was essential to my life and I missed it.

Lack of time, fatigue, any excuse to procrastinate or postpone hobbies that are considered unimportant is a mistake! Music makes me feel so good. I do not understand why I stopped playing it for so long.

I seriously started playing guitar in 2012. I've always loved singing. When I was younger I was in several competitions.

So I needed a new challenge to help me continue my dream of being musical. So I decided on the guitar! I fell in love with this instrument that I discover a little more of each day.

I never want to convince myself that I do not have time to do the things I love. We lose too much time and do not appreciate what we have, and I have every intention of becoming a pro at playing the guitar.